The Photo On The Website
off the web--so easy to alter
but obscured by remote
electronics from revisionist
biographers--how can anyone
"revise" a cyber text, disestablished,
never to be established,
as a "text' at any point in time?
Nothing in syntax to provide
definitive location, lacking
even descriptive details--except
of course, now that this poem
is talking on its own, a present-
able image, acknowledging
at the least the photographer
and a date--always subjective,
never the Poet, never the Real Me!--
still needing to write a first line.
25 February 2004
The Method Actor at Rose and Main
Venice Beach, California
I layer myself: four of them
to create a dusty red hat; one
smiley, blue-eyed head of clown--
white and gray and brightly red nose and lips;
long, white-gloved hands extended;
Hermaphrodite blue, bosom-breasted leotard
with frilly-gray skirt; long, fleshy-pink legs
and darker red ballet shoes
over a Pandora's box, in front of a faded
purple, spot-lit curtain.
Sometimes, with fog blowing overhead,
my right ballet toe moves--
maybe the ball down field, over a post,
a rugby penalty kick, or an all-American three pointer.
It's always a matter of method acting,
life styles with an attitude,
a Marlon-Brando kind of niche
that doesn't have to cry out, "Stell-lah!"
killing me softly with his song. Beyond Modesto
for Carola Gehrke
You should work within your legal limits:
letters of permission, non-advancing
royalty agreements, applications of support
abroad, which get "misinterpreted" as "AWARDS!"
because Hollywood don't understand
any other word.
Then nothing happens; a long, long
while remains suspended. Those words aren't worth
the air expended, unless they appear "placed,"
"labeled," "bound" and "stapled" in a documentary
file, which might be certified by the Superior Court:
articles of partial conservatorship, Disability, missing
the special needs of a care-giving trust.
conscious, try substituting a more persistent
attorney, who can improve on grammar, make those
courtly sentences flow on forever so smoothly.
Back home, it's the end of the day. And tomorrow?
Not another scheduled appearance! Not another
Individual Educational Plan with the Santa Monica
Unified District! Not more legalese to fry!
much easier to collapse into bed and to translate
bit by bit from the Swedish.